"To live consciously means to focus not on the outcome but the process, not on the perfection of an activity but on our courage to learn from our mistakes. It's to trust life to be a constant, willing, and wise teacher."

"If at times you lose your patience and project your frustration onto your children, either through hard  words or a clenched jaw, take a deep breath and forgive yourself. Then let it go and begin over.

If you find yourself losing your patience frequently, the situation invites scrutiny. There's simply no reason to lose your patience on a daily basis unless your life is stretched too thin, in which case it's time to evaluate your circumstances and if at all possible restore a balance.

At such a juncture, restructuring your life may need to become your spiritual focus."
- The Conscious Parent, Shefali Tsabary, PhD


The above passage resonated SO HARD today. I am focusing on slowing down and resting. We are pushing ourselves too hard. I'm home with our little darlings all day every day. He works insanely long hours right now. (New job... it's getting better as he settles in.) Then, somehow, we end up hosting people every weekend. It's always people we love and enjoy. But it's always people. And we  party, and stay up too late, and go on adventures, and generally bring the enthusiasm and enjoy the shit out of our guests. But then our guests leave on Sunday and we are exhausted. And then Monday morning comes around all too quickly. And we both start off the week exhausted.

Also, I am an Enneagram 1. If you don't know about the Enneagram personality types, you should. Go order a book on it immediately. Basically it means that I am a perfectionist and strive to live up to my own personal mind-created unattainable standards. So I push myself too hard. I'm working through that right now, big timez.

I'm feeling better than ever about my decision to go off of Lexapro. Feeling more in touch with my inner self. More in the moment. More in touch with the right decision to make in each moment as it unfolds. BUT I lose that when I push myself to exhaustion. So I'm cutting that shit out.

A dear friend bought me a tarot deck for my birthday. It's been on point AF every time. Except when I asked a question, my intuition told me the answer as I was shuffling, but I still chose a card looking for the answer I had just received.

Today's card is the Three of Cups. Cups pertain to relationships. This card is inviting me to celebrate and enjoy what is before me. The perfection. The abundance.


"If we are a conscious parent, we are patient and therefore in no hurry to impose every activity and piece of knowledge on our child. We recognize that childhood isn't a time for the fruit to come to fruition, but the time to plant the seed.

We also understand that it's our children's choice to water whichever seeds they will, guided by their innate wisdom and sense of destiny. In other words, a conscious parent trusts implicitly the child's intuition concerning its destiny.

To live consciously means to focus not on the outcome but the process, not on the perfection of an activity but on our courage to learn from our mistakes. It's to trust life to be a constant, willing, and wise teacher."
- The Conscious Parent, Shefali Tsabary, PhD