Day #12 sans Lexapro. I'm back in the familiar land where I am relatively functional (which in my world means caring for two tiny humans solo 7:00 am to 6:00 pm five days a week) but it is hard AF. Focusing on my kids and responding to them from a place of love and patience instead of irritation is so hard right now. So hard. Life is overstimulating in all ways right now. And my darling one year old is cutting a molar and wants to nurse nurse nurse nurse nurse all the goddamn time. All. The. Time.
I'm working on remembering to activate my parasympathetic nervous system whenever I'm feeling overstimulated. Easier said than done, but I'm trying with diaphragm breathing, mindfulness (no multitasking allowed, even in my brain), and, the newest one, lightly running a finger over my lips to stimulate the parasympathetic fibers in the lips.
Another favorite grounding activity of mine is walking around barefoot in the yard. But now it's fucking freezing here and putting one million socks, boots, hats, and coats on two squirming tiny humans is the antithesis of calming.
When I have a moment to read, I am reaching for The Seat of the Soul to keep myself centered and focused.
"When you bring the consciousness of your soul to your intention-setting process, when you choose to align yourself with your soul instead of with your personality [mind], you create a reality that reflects your soul rather than your personality [mind]." - Gary Zukav, The Seat of the Soul
"... Unconscious evolution through the density of physical matter, through the experiences that are created unconsciously by unconscious intentions has been the way of our species to now. ... Conscious evolution through responsible choice is the accelerated way of evolution... Responsible choice is the conscious road to authentic empowerment." - Zukav
"As you become conscious of the different parts of your personality, you become able to experience consciously the forces within you that compete for expression, that lay claim to the single intention that will be yours at each moment, that will shape your reality. When you enter these dynamics consciously, you create for yourself the ability to choose consciously among the forces within you, to choose where and how you will focus your energy." -Zukav
I highly recommend paring The Seat of the Soul with The Enneagram. And Jess Lively's podcast season 5.
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