I'm not drinking coffee or alcohol during the month of April. (Except a fancy family wedding I'm attending halfway through. You better believe I'm not going to pass up the chance to stand around in a sassy dress and heels and sip nice champagne sans-spawn!)
I gave up both coffee and alcohol in December of 2017 after reading Dr. Kelly Brogan's A Mind of Your Own. I couldn't tell a difference. Or maybe I didn't want to see it. But I think I'm going to give it another go.
I've got to make some changes, because I still feel like an anxious hypersensitive mess far too often. And it's not doing it for me. And my brain is probably still rebalancing from going off the SSRIs in November. I don't fucking know. But I need to feel like I am not standing in my own way. And I really like coffee and wine. A lot. And my consumption of both has been creeping back up lately. So it's time to take a break. And sit with the feels when it is hard to go without. Explore the cravings.
I have reduced my consumption of both over the years. These days, I drink a cup or two of coffee daily and a glass or two or three of wine regularly. I don't like that I don't know what my body and mind feel like without the regular influence of both. So I'm going to explore that.
The more time I spend aligned and centered and joyful, the worse the anxious headspace feels. So I'm going to keep on making changes in my life situation until my mind's default programming is alignment, not anxiety.
There. I wrote it down. Now it's a thing and I have to do it. Damn it.
And now I'm going to go re-listen to Dr. Kelly Brogan on The Joe Rogan Podcast for motivation.
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