Holy shitballs, y'all.

Holy shitballs, y'all. Ive been making a huge effort lately to trust that the universe has got my back, and that it will all work out. I'm working on letting go of my need to control and be able to plan everything out many steps into the future. I'm taking it one day at a time. One good decision at a time. I'm making decisions based on what my higher self wants long term, rather than giving into cravings for immediate but short lived pleasure.

Finances have always been a big stressor for me. We are single income so I can stay home and devote myself to our girls while they are little. I will start working again in a few years, but for now we are making it work.

We have some looming bills. Some property taxes that are due by the end of the year. Some credit card bills the just snuck up and got bigger than we could take out in a single month... you know how it goes. I've been working hard not to come to our financial situation with a scarcity mindset. We're doing the Dave Ramsey plan. I've been sneaking a couple hundred bucks a paycheck into the savings account to get us back up to $1,000. Then I was going to start funneling that couple hundred towards credit card debt. I had a plan. I was making a lot less meat, a lot more beans and rice. A lot more scrambled eggs and roasted broccoli. A lot more stir fries.

But my husband came home tonight and told me to close my eyes. Then he handed me a brand new MacBook Air with a giant stack of cash on top. Apparently while he was away for work last week, he stopped by a casino and turned $200 into $10,000! He's always been lucky. But hot damn.

We can pay off all our credit cards and the property taxes and still have plenty left over for Christmas! I no longer have to use our janky antique MacBook that only works sometimes, but only when plugged into a power source, and will surprise turn off with no warning.

Holy shit y'all. This whole aligning yourself with the universe and experiencing every moment to the fullest without stressing about tomorrow, while making good decisions today, is totally a thing. I used to be such a skeptic. My glass was always half empty. I used to tease my husband that he was a goofy optimist and I was a realist. Turns out, he knew what was up. Now that I've gotten on board, who knows what we can manifest together!

I'm writing this on my brand new MacBook Air. What the fuck. Life is full of surprises when you step back and just allow it to be. Just enjoy the experience. Every single moment.